after an hour in front of youtube which according to kenny is my 'god', i am left with nothing but much time till he comes back. i am so addicted to youtube. since 5 or 6 years ago. who doesnt eh? and i found several channels i am so hooked on.

it's barely a month and my nails are incredibly long that i have problem with keyboard. despite making a promise to get it remove for a month, i cant stick to it. i have issues with short nails. it's pretty much asking me to run around naked. i laid in bed two in the morning going through the colors i want to put on this month. it's a negative obsession since 17. i didnt even want to calculate the money i invested on it. speaking of nails, i lost two of my toe nails last week. nothing but gross. my toe nails have never seen the light since i was 12. now i have a wish, brand new set of nails. but again, it's like a bad hair day, we can all survive through it.

life has been good to me lately. all good things come (to an end). i still believe in this. since his seven weeks course ended, we spend every breathing moment together. i have this weird image lingering in my head forever. the time which we spend together now is to 'balance-out' the time he's leaving me in the fourth quarter of the year. a good 6 months. depsite knowing this for months, it still sends chill down my spine from time to time but compared to US Army like how i seen on MTV, this seems nothing.

friends are turning 28 this year. it seems so yesterday i met them. hitting the clubs and drowning ourselves with loud music and now i heard wedding bells ringing, from everywhere and a few? with babies. do people still believe in marriages in this century? or is it just jack and jane? maybe i have yet to come to terms with my age.

we only kowtow to botox (=